Running Through My Head

Sorry I keep posting so much! I guess I just have a lot to say!

I've been thinking SO much today about some things.

First, I'm planning on talking to my bishop in a few weeks about going on a mission. 

Yes, you read that correctly. A mission.

I have no idea what will be said, or how my sweet family will react, but I have always had the desire to go, I'm worthy to go, and watching conference this weekend has made me really think about it.

Second, let's talk about dating for a minute.

Dating is great, and a ton of fun... most of the time haha

I had an experience this past week that left me extremely confused and with the thought of "I'm just not ready to date again..."

But this thought was wrong. Because, like a couple posts ago, I'm not going to dwell on the past. Of course, I don't want to jump into anything, and I'd really like to concentrate more on school, but I refuse to let bad experiences get me down. I wouldn't even say this past week was a bad experience, as much as it was a learning experience. I hung out with an amazing guy. We got along really well, he made me laugh, and is very caring. So what went wrong? Well, rather than enjoying myself, and living in the moment, I let thoughts in my head take over. Everything was also really bad timing. Anyways, I scared the guy away. And I completely understand why. I hope he'll still want to be friends with me because he really is a good guy. I hope one day he'll realize that I had a bad week, and some of the things I said (or freaked out about) were things that I normally would never say. I feel that I'm usually a pretty chill, down to earth person. Either way, if anything, I've learned a great lesson, and also realized that there really are good guys still out there. 

Third, I've been thinking all day about serving others. I've had quite a few people on my mind lately and since talking to them throughout today, I've realized that serving others is something that I really need to continue to do. Not only does it help me to feel better, but it can eventually change the lives of others. :)

I LOVE MY LIFE